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[06 May 2006|11:56pm] |
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okay! I forgot my password.
I got LiveJournal to mail me a new one.
But the password is so robotic like;
I`ll never ever remember it!!
I rode my bike with Ashley to North Point Park.
And I took a lot of pictures and everything.
I don`t like that their water fountain doesn`t work.
It`s like a journey to other end of the world and
they don`t offer any water or beverages. What the f.
MSI MONDAY!!!!
SUHWEEET.
Yeah, well I went and saw my grandfather last Sunday
and he was doing really good. I know this because he
was sitting there watching TV and this commericial
that had a Bob Dylan song on it came on, and he started
singing. I thought it was amazing. He recovered so fast.
But now an hour ago, he just went to the Emergency Room.
I`m scared and I`ll probably cry for the rest of my life.
I hate Sparrows Point.
I think I like two people that go to that school.
Like, Lauren and Jackie.
Because they don`t start drama, and they don`t spread dumb rumors.
My allergies have been bothering me to the point where I feel sick.
So, I chilled in my room all day and drank ginger ale and jammin` to some MIX1065.
I can`t wait to move out.
I can`t wait for MBA!!!
I can`t wait for my Fell`s Apartment/Art Studio.
BIRTHDAY PARTY- MAY 27TH.
LIVE BAND :D @ THE DEMOCRATIC CLUB.
COME AND GET SOME FREE FOOD.
I think I`m going to the Towson Spring Fest tomorrow.
I hope, anyways.
OUTBREAK is playing and my uncle rules.
I like those 8oz bottles of Sprite.
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[28 Apr 2006|10:51pm] |
TAKE THE LAST TWO DIGITS IN THE YEAR YOU WERE BORN AND WRITE THAT MANY FACTS/STORIES/SECRETS ABOUT YOU:
NO REPEATING!!!
1.) My name is Abigail Christine Fazenbaker.
2.) My first name was named after a heavy metal song by King Diamond. My middle name came from Christian who was my dad's best friend who commited suicide.
3.) I get really annoyed when people mispronounce my last name. Faze-n-baker. Simple :)
4.) I love music. And I know everybody says that, but it can really cheer me up.
5.) I love shopping. Especially, getting sweet deals. Hahaha. Like at old navy, those flip flops are sweet.
6.) My room is bright orange. I have bright green doors and all around my window is green.
7.) Most of my bedroom furniture comes from Ikea!
8.) I met Thrice at Warped Tour last night, and I thought it was the most amazing thing that I ever did, at the time. Hahaha.
9.) I would probably have so much money but I spend all of my money on gum and ciggarettes.
10.) I love smoking weed where the woods are at the back of the feild, in the village.
11.) I have had a brand new skateboard for over two years that I have probably skated on twice that costed over 250 dollers.
12.) I think everyone doesn`t like me, so I don`t talk to people I don`t know, most of the time. Haha.
13.) I took Culinary Arts because my dad wanted me to do it and I used to value my fathers opinion.
14.) Autumn is the cutest little girl/sister I could ever want.
15.) I think/analyze things a lot. It really doesn`t make any sense considering everyone thinks I make bad decisions.
16.) Everybody thinks I`m gay because I have short hair and it`s extremely annoying.
17.) Ashley is my best friend and she`s the nicest person I`ve ever met.
18.) I don`t like when people give me compliments because I know I don`t deserve them.
19.) Driving in a car for a long period of time is no problem for me, I love long car trips because you can blare music and yell crap to passing cars. :D
20.) I don`t like it when people take credit for someone elses idea.
21.) I can promise you that I will never lie to you.
22.) I can always tell when someone is lying to me. That`s why I drop some friends real easily.
23.) My exboyfriend cries when he watches, Gilmore Girls. Hahaha.
24.) Gossip is retarded. I won`t say anything behind your back that I wouldn`t to your face.
25.) I love making new friends.
26.) I like making people laugh.
27.) Living near Royal Farms is sweeet.
28.) I could live off of Arizona Green Tea&Salad, but I`m fat and I love mushroom pizza.
29.) Once this guy tried hooking up with me and he always told me he had a bacon dick. So, one day me and Erin took raw bacon and put it all over his door.
30.) I`m kind of mean/snobby if I`m shy.
31.) I love plans that are made in the spur-of-the-moment.
32.) I think James Frey is the best author, ever.
33.) I wish everyone could take a minute to relax, instead of buying tight-asses all of the time.
34.) One time, I didn`t talk to my mom for about a week because she asked if I was gay because I bought a 1950`s Playboy Clock.
35.) I looooove sleeping. But oversleeping gives me headaches.
36.) Headaches make me nautious.
37.) I hate when I see other people use people for rides.
38.) I miss going to Fell`s Point every other day and going down to the dock and climb on the roofs and getting served at bars.
39.) I just miss old times.
40.) I hate when people think they know me, and assume shit.
41.) Don`t judge people from what they`ve done, or what you`ve heard. Judge nothing. Just get to know them.
42.) Making a movie crosses my mind everyday. I really want to do it.
43.) I have a high respect for myself, and I love my life.
44.) I love a good laugh.
45.) I am the worst of people in the morning.
46.) I like when people knock on my door in the middle of the night, just to get something to drink at Royal Farms.
47.) I love taking walks with people I love.
48.) I LOVE THE MOVIE, CRASH&ETERNAL SUNSHINE OF THE SPOTLESS MIND&PULP FICTION. forreal.
49.) I wish I was born in 1949, so I could just stop here. Haha.
50.) A couple of months ago, I was behind those buildings near Petsmart and I was tagging buildings with erin. We wrote stuff like, ABIGAIL FAZE & ERIN HAM. The next day my ex stepfather calls my mom up and says, Hey since when does abigail tag buildings??????
51.) The only reason I got to go to driving school was because I won 500 dollers at bingo with my grandmother.
52.) My dads girlfriend makes up shit and tells my dad. EX: She`ll tell my dad that I was copping school and she was snorting crack. She`s dumb.
53.) I love looking at old yearbooks and pictures and laugh at how redicolous I look.
54.) I am pretty embarrassed to admit it, but I make fun of gothic people all of the time, and i normally get away with it because the people that know me now, don`t know that i used to be the gayest jerbang in the world.
55.) I overdosed on pills once, and I kept crying because it was two days before christmas and I kept screaming 'I`M NOT GOING TO MAKE IT TO FUCKING CHRISTMAS', haha i`m really fucking weird.
56.) I always think that I`m doing something wrong, so I over analyze the situation and make it worse.
57.) I just liked it when recess was enough.
58.) When I was at driving school I found out you could be sent to jail up to eight years in prison for stealing street signs. I would be in there for a long ass time. I have a speed limit 30 sign that i turned into 80. i have a fire extinguisher sign. and i have a stop sign that was in the middle of this intersection like thing in westminster. hahaha, :( i hope nobody got hurt.
59.) I cried once because my mom told me that I was bi-polar.
60.) My mom likes to hit me while I`m driving.
61.) My picture on my Learner`s Permit is the most humiliating picture in the world. Ask to see it, I`ll show you.
62.) I care a lot about my hair. It`s the only thing I really have going for me.
63.) I give money to crackheads down Fell`s Point. I don`t care if they lie to me and say it`s for riding the bus, I just like being nice to people.
64.) I want to meet James Frey.
65.) My favorite vacation was Las Vegas. Yes, I liked it more than the Bahama`s.
66.) I hate when people say they are my best friend and they only know me from school. I`m weird in school. So, no.
67.) For some reason, I always have weird relationships with my english teachers. I always hate them at first and then we get to be pretty chill.
68.) I cannot stand Mrs.Bonanno-Paa.
69.) When my grandmother wants me to go to Bingo with her, the old people crack me up. They bring signs and wave them around and they yell creepy shit when the bingo caller calls O-69.
70.) NEXTEL SUCKS!
71.) I hate when people want to hangout and drink, and they change their mind.
72.) I can`t stand it when people break plans with me.
73.) I`ve actually seen a real groundhog.
74.) I can`t stand it when people ask me if i`m punk. SHUT UUUP!
75.) I had to save this thing to NOTEPAD because it`s taken me over a week to do this survey/list thing.
76.) My favorite place that I`ve ever lived was over at Todd`s Farm where those houses are. It was on the water and it was so beautiful.
77.) My old stepdad was an ass.
78.) He yelled/made fun of my 86 year old Great Grandmother if she didn`t do laundry.
79.) I think there is only about 2-3 people that wouldn`t tell my business to at Sparrows Point.
80.) I love to brush my teeth, but I make a huge mess. Haha, ewh...
81.) My typing must look a certain way or it will irritate me.
82.) I don`t know if I said this already but I have two half sisters. I only reconize that I have one though because she is my favorite and we get along, real well.
83.) All of our names all begin with an A.
84.) When I stand my knees go backwards kindah far, and people are annoying about it.
85.) I used to overdose on Nyquil.
86.) I`m in Culinary Arts.
87.) I hope I`m not repeating myself because that`s absurd.
88.) I`m always on my cell, although I wish I wasn`t.
89.) I`m good for keeping promises.
90.) I promise I`ll never let you down.
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| I KNOW YOU WANT IT ALL. |
[26 Apr 2006|03:06pm] |
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I want to go ride my bike around North Point park SO BAD!
Seriously.
I got my report card, today.
And I guess it`s okay.
School`s lame.
ANTI FLAG IS PLAYING @ WARPED TOUR!!!!
& EARLY NOVEMBER!!
suhweet.
I smoked with Megan the other day and it was really boring.
Haha, and Jeff kept calling me and saying he could see me.
And I got really scared, haha because we were in the middle
of Heritage Park near the school. And I really think he was
spying on us hahaha.
I think it`s time to dye my hair!
& I recommend A MILLION LITTLE PIECES & MY FRIEND, LEONARD.
They`re amazing books! James Frey rules. Haha.
2 weeks until MSI :D!
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| I THINK TODAY I`LL BE HARDCORE. IF I FORGET TO TAKE MY MEDICINE I THINK I`LL BE SICK. |
[25 Apr 2006|06:33pm] |
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Lately, I`ve been really happy.
And I`m ignoring peoples bad attitudes.
Seriously, it makes me a lot easy going.
My grandfather is so much better.
I lost it when I went and saw him
as soon as he got out of surgery,
it was really upsetting. I love him.
I missed PTW and I am so pissed.
My dad is a dickhead and he makes
me think i`m comming over until
the very last minute so, I tell
my ride that I can`t go... LAME.
Poison the well is playing again.
May 9th.
Ashley is taking me to see MSI for my birthday.
Suhweet.
Hahaha, except Ed is my ride.
BAHHHHAHAAH, yeah.
I love Ashley, she`s suhweet.
me and ashley are going camping in july.
it`ll be sweet as hell.
we`re going for a week.
road trip :DDD
and i`m having a sweet 16.
because my mom planned it.
it was supposed to be a suprise.... but then she told me.
hahaha, she`s a goof.
well, i`m having a live band playing.
and they rule.
haha, i don`t really care who comes.
whatev.
but i won`t be able to see the fucking misfits on my birthday
which kind of makes me :,(
hahahah, i`m so happy right now.
life`s geeeewd.
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[19 Apr 2006|10:38pm] |
the bahama`s ruled.
seriously.
IT`S CALLED DRINK UNTIL YOU PUKE.
uh,. what do you do.
DRINK UNTIL YOU FUCKING VOMIT.
hahahahgdkja<3!
stole this from sara.
Ten random thoughts about ten random people...and no names.
Are you on here?
1. Girl. You are the most important person to me and I don`t think I`d make it through anything without you. You tolerate me, which is a lot to ask and you listen to me. We have the greatest friendship anyone could ever ask for and I can`t wait for the summer parties up in Joppa. I`ll always be there for you. Love you girl!
2. I seriously miss the hell out of you. We used to be really close until you let some bullshit guy that you treat like shit, break our friendship. You`re stupid as hell, but I miss you. We`ll probably never be friends again, but I guess that`s which way the wind blew.
3. I found out today that you have a tumor in your brain. It breaks my heart. You make me realize how I need to let go a little. You are so careless and free. I admire everything about you. I love you and I know you`ll get through this.
4. You`ll probably have a bad upbringing. I worry about this all of the time. I try and tell other people but they don`t understand. The only reason I can relate is because I`ve been there. I love you and I hope that you know that you can come to me when you are older and start realizing situations on your own. You`re cute and I love you to death. You bring out the more nicer side of me, even if you are only 20 months old. Haha.
5. Hahahahahahahhahaha. You are the dumbest piece of shit, ever. Cry.Cry.Cry.Cry.Cry. Hahahahahahahahahaha. I seriously hope you are my ride to the MSI show, because I will just spit in your face. Hahahahaha, you are a disgrace to all guys. You fucking dumb ass.
6. Even if you remind me of Forest Gump, the Bahama`s trip ruled. Only you can think of such fun drinking games. Bahahahahahaha :D
7. YOU USED TO BE LOUD. Well, you still kind of are, but I feel like I know you a lot better now, you`re awesome and I feel chill when I`m with you. I can be myself and not sound dumb when I say something stupid because you laugh at everything, anyways. Hahaha. We need to chill more.
8. You`re a little girl with a big heart. You remind me of the sun. Haha. It`s weird but you`re just briiiight. You never seem to get mad. I don`t know you`re down to earth and fun. Only you can get me to walk to High's for ice cream.
9. I didn`t think people like you were real. I thought when people said something like "they do it for attention, they fuck all the guys for attention, they smoke weed for attention, they tell people they`ve been to rehab for attention, they`re really nasily and whine about every dumb thing, they say they are pregnant when they`ve never had sex" I thought they were just exaggerating. No. People like that do fucking exist. You are a piece of fucking trash.
10. We have some good ass times in Culinary. You strike me as someone who would be a Sublime groupie. Haha, you`re down as shit, girl. You`re the only one I can tolerate in MS.BP'S class. Haha, "NASTY BREEEZE". Loveyougirl.
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Okay.
Wednesday I drove to Arundel Mills with my mom and Chey.
My mom kept threatening to hit me across the face while I was driving.
She is annoying and I wish I could throw her off the side of the bridge.
I love driving over the Key Bridge.
I love driving. Haha.
Me and Chey ate at this really gross retaurant and it sucked.
LAAAAME!!
I start driving school, Monday :D
I`m extremely stressed out about this term paper I`m writing.
I don`t have that much information and I still have to write half of it.
That is why, I`m not doing fucking nothing this weekend. I didn`t make plans with anyone.
I kinda feel proud of myself, haha.
Uhhhm, I don`t know.
This entry sucks.
PEACE
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[23 Mar 2006|02:57pm] |
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I am so excited to go driving, today.
I`ve been driving everywhere lately.
I drove to school today and my mom
was screaming at this guy who cut
me off, and I was really embarrassed.
I`m driving over the keybridge for
the first time, today. Chey said
she was comming. I don`t know. Arundel
Mills is a pretty far drive, and I`m
loving to drive because it`s something
I`m actually good at, which sounds silly
but I`m lacking skill @everything else :P
I signed up for driving school at B&R,
I start next week, which is really going
to stress me out.I got all this shit going on
with school and research papers, I just don`t
have time. And it really is lame I don`t get
to see anybody anymore. I`m already missing
two classes of driving school. I`m deffenetly
not missing out on the Spill Canvas.
GOODBYEEEEE RUBYTUESDDAY :)
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| and what you are is beautiful. |
[20 Mar 2006|09:47pm] |
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Saturday was fun. We went to the Sparta and went and saw Outbreak. They were good. I love my Uncle. Haha, although he doesn`t shut up about me looking like Lisa Presley. I had a really good time. Everyone thought I was 24 so it made a lot of things easier ;). I realized a lot of things that night. My uncle let this 20-something cerable palsy guy, sing a song, by Godsmack and he did really good. I admire him for going up there and getting all into it. He ruled. My dad went up there and shook his hand. I thought it was cute. I got my learners. I`ve been driving everywhere because I rule. I passed the test, first time unlike Chey. Haha. I look like a fucking lion in my picture. It makes me look like I have some kind of eighties hair, going on. I love Autumn. She is everything to me, seriously. Elise wants me to watch the kids for two weeks in the summer, while they go to Rome. I`m looking forward to it, because I love Autumn. Adrienne is annoying, but I guess I`ll deal. I`m exhausted. A lot of shit has been going on, and if I`ve been pretty distant lately, sorry.
LIVE :)
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[18 Mar 2006|09:50pm] |
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Happy Saint Patricks Day.
I want you to get therapy. I think you should go to the docters. I hope you are planning
on taking some tests. I always do my best for you. I know there`s something wrong with you.
But, I`m not a docter. I know how to handle these types of things. I know the rules of life.
I don`t want to hear your bullshit. I don`t fucking care. It`s always about you. I`ll tell
whoever I want about your disorders. It is too, my business. It`s their business, too. I
hope you realize you are sick. I don`t want you on the road. I don`t know whether to be
worried or scared, or just take you immedietly to the docters. WHY AM I WORRIED? I noticed
a behavior change in the last week. I-I--I know there`s something wrong with you.
-DID YOU EVER FUCKING STOP TO THINK?,. MAYBE I DON`T ACT LIKE THIS
WITH ANYONE ELSE. JUST BECAUSE I CANNOT FUCKING STAND YOU DOESN`T
MEAN I HAVE DISORDERS AND I`M SICK IN THE HEAD AND ALL YOUR BULLSHIT.-
"YOU DON`T KNOW THE RULES OF LIFE."
"JUST BECAUSE I DON`T LIVE MY LIFE LIKE YOURS,.?! I KNOW WHAT`S IMPORTANT."
My mother causes too much stress.
I won five hundred bucks, yesterday and went to the MVA, today.
I don`t care about this though.
I guess I do but it`s like, material things aren`t happiness.
I don`t even fucking know.
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| MY LIFE IS BRILLIANT. |
[17 Mar 2006|02:39pm] |
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SINGLE LIFE IS THE GOOD LIFE.
:D
I JUST BECAME HAPPY AS SOON AS I BECAME HAPPY.
THIS WHOLE WEEK SUCKED BECAUSE I TRIED THINKING
OF A NICE WAY TO BREAK UP WITH ED, BUT NOW I`M JUST
ABSOLUTELY HAPPY, THAT IT`S OVER WITH.
AHHH :)
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So, basically today was good. I`m just getting bored of routine. I got to see Ashley, today which was amazing. I ran across some highway bullshit and fell. I fucked my side up really bad. Then, I overdosed on some pill bullshit with Ashley. She got really sick and started barfing and I was so stoned off my ass that I couldn`t do anything. I don`t know what my problem is. My pupils are still big as shit. I`m so out of it right now. My dads exwife is trying to get in touch with me, I hope this doesn`t turn out to be a big problem. She ate away at certain parts of my childhood and wrecked my relationship with my father. OUTBREAK is playing at a bar Saturday, and I`m going to check it out only because it`s my uncles band. I`m so fucking sore. UGH! I actually had a good time in Culinary today. I was fucking around with Sarah and Mr.Sheehe walks in and starts screams. Hahaha. I hate him. Yeah, for anyone who doesn`t know, Mr.Sheehe is his real name so shut up. I felt really boring today hanging out with Ashley. I`m not going to ruin anybodies time anymore. Yeah, so I`m deffenetly fucking drug-free.
LOVE :D
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[15 Mar 2006|03:40pm] |
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I`m feeling good, lately. Today was alright, I guess. I hate Culinary though. We are decorating cakes and shit but it`s super fucking boring. A lot of people get on my nerves in that class. The day went by really slow. Jackie was making me laugh so hard, today. We were making fun of Tisa so bad. Haha. It was pretty bad. "Land Breeze, Sea Breeze,. and what else?!" "NASTY BREEZE" Hahahaha. I love it. On another note, I need to break up with Ed as soon as I can find a way that isn`t too harsh. I`m normally not really worried about breaking up with somebody but everyone is telling me that he`s really sensitive so I`m just like., stressing. I guess this is why I tell everyone relaitionships are a waste of time. I like cocky guys, anyways. Whatever. I`m chillin with Ashley, tomorrow. It`ll be cool because I haven`t seen much of her, lately. I`ve been drug free for the last two weeks, on this upcomming Friday. I`m pretty happy. I know I said I was going to quit smoking a bunch of times, but the truth is I don`t think I can at this point. The weather has been beautiful the past 3 days. It`s pretty cold outside today, though. My life is really important to me and I can`t waste my time not being happy. I am going to be happy and I`m cutting out the bad. I know there`s bad with most things but I`m going to do the best I can. I need some coffee.
SMILE :)
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